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How it all started – Part 3

So, to complete the story, I should include my last post on that said blog, which was posted in March 2012…

Oh well, as you can see from my previous two entries my determination wasn’t strong enough. Actually the two years flew by so fast that I don’t even know how that happened. So I think I owe you some catch up, here are the resolutions and what actually happened:

1) New job
Yay, I got new job back in late 2010 but now I feel like I should start looking again and aim higher.

2) To find more time and money to travel
Well, ย it is easier said than done to be honest. So now I just have the time, I hope the money will come at some point too…

3) To lose weight
Erm, nothing happened here so I am aiming to kick start this ‘project’ again!

Anyways, I have recently decided that I should start writing book reviews as I read a lot and I fancy doing something creative for a change. It won’t be posted here but one day I might connect those two blogs.ย 

Ta ta for now and I will be back with more news.

How it all started – Part 2

Few days after that I posted my penultimate post on (then) brand new blog…

As I mentioned before, I have started thinking quite a bit about things such as – what do I want from life?, what would make me happy? and how to reach that balance. I guess it is only fair to list what actually is not right in my life at the moment or what I am lacking…

First of all I am not ecstatic about my current job. I feel like I am not reaching my potential there. It is the typical job that just pays the rent, nothing more. Where is the job satisfaction? Where is the sense of achievement? Or personal growth? Nowhere!!! So the logical solution is

1) To find job that will compliment my skills and knowledge and that will fulfill me!

Another thing I would like to change is my desire to travel. I love traveling, exploring new countries, cultures, people and customs. I love the sensation that everyday you will find something new and exciting. Therefore second point should be

2) To find more time and money for traveling OR ideally get a job that involves traveling ๐Ÿ™‚

There are two more things that I am not happy about and would like to change, but they are more on a personal level –ย 

3) To lose weight

Why those two? Well, how to put it… For my whole life I was more or less on plump side of the weight scale. When I turned twenty I started to be more and more plumpy and this trend was slowly continuing. The in mid 20’s I moved abroad and in past two years this problem really escalated out of proportions!!! Two years ago I started dieting which had a little effect but after six months I gave up. Don’t ask me why as first of all I do not remember and lastly I am absolutely positive that it was one of my many silly irrelevant excuses… To cut the long story short, yo-yo effect hit home big time and one day I woke up with body that was totally alien to me. It felt like you put on a fat lady costume and now you are not able to jump out of it. So I got stuck and the more stuck I got the less determination I had to do something with. The nice fancy scales that I had in bathroom stopped being used and at some point went to the wardrobe with the intention to be out of sight.

I thought, now that I am thirty I will start again from scratch so I found the scales and it took me two days to be brave enough and step on it. I should mention that in past two years I went two dress sizes up so I knew that what ever the scales tell me will not be the best news but what ever I imagined I was light-years away from what the scales told me. Usually on these fancy digital scales it beeps few times when you jump on them then nothing and then three beeps telling you that now you can read the display and tear your hair. Well this time it was different!!! Few beeps when I jumped on it and then dead silence!!! So I looked down and the display was shouting ERROR!!! I almost dropped dead!!! No need to mention that I repeated the process few times always with the same result. So my next steps went to the Internet to find out what is the maximum weight the scales show and after bit of searching I found out that it was 150kg!!! So now I positively know one thing – I am ridiculously fat and weight anything above 150kg. I was devastated for few days hence the determination to lose weight.

Maybe you are asking why I am putting this in a blog… Well, don’t get me wrong, I have few really good friends but I don’t feel like sharing this with them as it is my personal quest and they have their own problems and in the same time if I put my thoughts out there I feel like obliged to keep my word and really do something about my situation. And even if no one is going to read this blog and just me, it is good to clean your mind and soul and write your hopes, worries and thoughts somewhere so why not here. Maybe there is someone else going through the same thing and would like some support. Or someone already went through this and succeeded and would like to give me some support. Or even if my thoughts just amuse someone then why not, it is ok with me.

How it all started – Part 1

Well, it all started in January 2010 with this post in my (then) new blog…

Hi there, my name is Renny and two weeks ago I turned thirty! I never thought it would be such a big deal but for some reason it really hit hard! When you are in your 20’s you feel like everything is out there waiting for you to discover,conquer or just experience it but when you turn 30 the perspective completely changes. Suddenly you start asking yourself what have you done so far and where are you going in your life. I have been consumed by these thoughts for past few days and came to the conclusion that I have not achieved as much as I could have and that there are few things that I am missing in my life. I knew I want to make some changes in my life but the question was HOW. I am the type of person who starts loads of projects but finishes only handful of them and therefore I started thinking about new ways how to tackle this change and came up with the blog idea. It started as a tiny thought and it grew up on me so much that today I set up this site and thought that tomorrow evening I will post my first entry. Well, that was the plan anyway but I kept thinking about it and could not fall asleep so I decided to bite the bullet and do something useful instead ๐Ÿ™‚

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